Quite an enigmatic character, isn't he?

In this post I would like to outline why I am an enigma to pretty much everyone. Even my circles of friends only know as much as I care to share. The truth and fact of the matter is that even around people I should feel comfortable around, I am horribly shy about everything imaginable. I feel as if I am constantly wearing a stack of masks, around strangers I have all masks on, not willing to share anything. I take most of them off around my circles of friends, but that one mask that hides my actual thoughts and feelings is still on tight, grafted to my face like its always been. Its hard on me to have this unconscious shelter from other people and also crave attention at every waking hour of the day. I act antisocial, yet I crave social attention like none other. I act asexual, yet I also crave those things as well. Lately I seem to have fallen into a grand lapse of alienation and invisibility. I thank those that took time to break out the ghost detector to find this invisible kid and talk to him.