Quite an enigmatic character, isn't he?

In this post I would like to outline why I am an enigma to pretty much everyone. Even my circles of friends only know as much as I care to share. The truth and fact of the matter is that even around people I should feel comfortable around, I am horribly shy about everything imaginable. I feel as if I am constantly wearing a stack of masks, around strangers I have all masks on, not willing to share anything. I take most of them off around my circles of friends, but that one mask that hides my actual thoughts and feelings is still on tight, grafted to my face like its always been. Its hard on me to have this unconscious shelter from other people and also crave attention at every waking hour of the day. I act antisocial, yet I crave social attention like none other. I act asexual, yet I also crave those things as well. Lately I seem to have fallen into a grand lapse of alienation and invisibility. I thank those that took time to break out the ghost detector to find this invisible kid and talk to him.

Invictus

OUT of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

William Ernest Henley. 1849–1903

I Need Your Help

This will be a simple favor; all I ask is that you tell me your honest opinion about me. Don't sugar coat it; tell me whatever you actually think. I'm having some internal conflicts as of late, and knowing my public image to a degree will help me with my little identity crisis I seem to be having at the moment. If you don't want your opinion being read by the whole 2 people that even read this shit you can send it to me in a myspace message (myspace.com/tomeg12) or something. Thanks in advance,
Chris

Arbitrary & Obligatory First Blog

Hello, and welcome to my newly created blog! Honestly this was started out on a whim of sheer boredom, and I doubt anybody will even give two shits to even read it. All the cool kids nowadays are doing it, so why not let everybody pry into my personal life and pick my brain apart as well? Oh, I’m sure it will be fun, I’ll probably learn as much about myself from this personal reflection as you will.

Where to begin? How about some basic information. My name is Christopher John Kenney, Born May 30^th, 1992. I grew up from birth till around 2 years old living in Cumberland, Maryland. Then I moved to good ol’ Short Gap, West Virginia in that white house across from Hunt Club Plaza (you know the one.) I attended Head Start in Fort Ashby in that trailer beside the elementary school. My memories from that long ago are very hazy, but I do remember chumming around every day with my best friend Caleb Bishop (now known as Caleb Davis.) After that some shit happened and my parents decided to move to Eckhart, Maryland, and then later to what I still consider my hometown, Frostburg. I lived there until my parents got divorced and I moved back to West Virginia the summer before 8^th grade, and I’ve been here ever since.

My interests are erratic and eclectic to say the least. In my spare time, I enjoy: Playing video games, listening to and playing music (very, very mediocre guitar), strategizing and playing the Yu-Gi-Oh TCG (Don’t knock it ‘till you try it), pampering my pets (two cats, a dog, and a bird), lurking 4chan (don’t ask), getting together with friends, and engrossing myself in Japanese culture and media (Anime, Manga, etc.) I find Japanese culture so interesting, so much that I have taken 3 years of the language.

I’ve been playing guitar a lot more than usual lately and I think that I’m starting to get a knack for it. Keyword being “starting”. Well, that’s about all I can think of to type right now, ill get back to this blog business at a later date.

Stay classy planet Earth,

Chris K.